missylihui ♥

one told me,"lihui, i'm really admire your attitude. You're really moving on fast.... "

these few weeks.

i ponder on so many things.

the most miserable day that i ever had.

i only know that i had a real big cry and i admit that i was really afraid at that point of time.

It seems like the world is falling down on me.

it hurts so much that i can feel the pain in my heart.

5 days later. the day when i found out something that hurts me so deeply.

to the extent that i did and say things impulsively.

and even to the extent that i teared in school.

and i told myself.

this will be the last time that i ever teared for this r/s.

the day she called me.

i feel for her. i feel so much appreciated that she care for me.

she is part of the reason why i find it tough to let go.

till today.

i feel for everything.

and when i started packing my stuff.

i realised.

that i did not tear anymore.

cause.

i woke up from my fantasy.

i know that its all over.

this will be my past.

i believed that God has a plan for everyone.

if he plans this hurdle for me.

he will have another plan arranged for me.

i dont blame anyone.

i know that no one is to be blamed in a r/s.

if there is anyone to be blamed, blame it on the environment.

environment changes one.

and so do environment changed me.

also,

this is reality.

we have our own choices.

and what i know now is.

the ones who/that i should cherish in my life are.

my parents.

my siblings.

studies.

and friends.

lastly, to all: rmb to love yourself more than you love others. =)

xoxo,

missylihui