i feel lost.

after reading her blog(her bf was one of the army guys who died during training),
http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/

i feel lost.

i know.
for all this while,
i have been putting up a strong front to others.

wherever i go.
i saw images of us popping up.
it seems like we together left footprints everywhere.

and i repeatedly told myself.
to forget and let go.
no point holding on to this memories anymore.

but it's really tough.
really tough.
moving on isnt that simple.
esp. 5 years feelings that i always have.

every morning i wake up.
i look at the mirror.
and i wonder.
why did this r/s come to such end?

we once told each other that we will cherish this r/s.
and you given me your promise that you will be there for me no matter what happen.
we did think of marrying each other. but in the end?

everyone sees us as the best couple.
everyone thought that we can last.

and now.
everyone was shocked.
to see us separated.

2 more days. 58th months anniversary.
but this time round.
its different.

i wish all this while was a dream.
but it isnt.
=(